As some of you may or may not know (and you should if you're on this blog)... my life revolves around music. I love it. Play it, write it, live it, study in, become inspired by it, study it - and become driven crazey by it all the same. Mostly because I'm a Music Major in school.
You may think me insane for saying that. Well, you'd be right - but not for that reason.
I am a student to the Berklee College of Music Online school. My certificate program is in Music Production and Writing. In only the second semester of my learning, I heard the phrase - "Don't let studying music destroy your love for it." Alright maybe it wasn't that EXACT wording, but you get the point.
Behind me, I have a copious amount of schoolwork to do. I really don't feel like doing any of it. For that, I feel like a bit of a failure. Of course, maybe it's the 19 year old in me, too. Right now, I'm taking a course called "Rhythm Arrangement 101". It's centered mostly around theory, and every other student has expensive arranging software that I can't afford. Don't I feel special? Ha.
My teacher is nice enough, but I'm failing.
My first two courses - Desktop Music Production and Music Production Analysis were amazing. In those two course, I earned a 4.0 GPA. This arranging course is bringing my grades down big time.
In years of music experience, I've never used as much theory as I do in this course. In fact, a working, respectable music teacher of mine told me many modern music professionals don't use that much theory.
Nice to know...
It's driving me insane. While I took basic theory courses in high school and I've been playing stringed instruments for years - I'm stumped. It's frustrating.
I'm not entirely certain what the point of my post is here.
I'm not entirely certain when this schoolwork is gonna get done. It's about 1:45 AM. Thinking of pulling an all-nighter. I'm past a few deadlines already, and entering into new ones.
But despite the hell I have to go through with this course... I am determined that I will not allow it to destroy my love for music. I won't. I just won't lay down and let it beat me up. I will pass this course (God-willing) and hopefully learn something. What? I'm not certain. But something, I'm sure...